Bosan
dah tu plak partner aku ni kerek semacam je..bgtau yg aku kena isi borang cuti halfday sbb masa tu dah lepas pkl 10...kiranya dr 7.30 aku masuk kije smpai pkl 10 tu aku tkde...kena la amek cuti sbb menguruskan hal peribadi.. tu yg buat aku bengang tu...mementang ler kite ni kuli..pelbagai arahan kite kena ikut...kalo derang tu..kuar dr pkl 10 pagi smpai ke time lunch tk balik², tkpe la plak...choiihh.... ni la dia org melayu...
berbalik pada KWSP tadi...bila aku dh dapat surat perlantikan..aku kena jumpa pengarah plak..nak mintak pengesahan dia..nak jumpa pengarah ni aku segan sket..sbb dia ni lain dr yg lain..tegas!! ..tp apakan daya...aku ke KWSP semula...amek nombor, beratur,...tungguu....bila dah depan kaunter..sekali dia kata.. 'mana buku bank ngn salinan potostat?'...bengong!!!!..tadi tk cakap pon nak buku bank.. *&%^##@%&**..
nak dimaki..sib baik aku anggun ari ni...terpaksa ler patah balik opis..amek buku bank...dan antar...utk menda ni je..aku rugi masa 5jam..kerja berlambak tertangguh...perut lapar...
hai la nasib...smpai je opis..aku terus gi kantin..isi perut dulu...dan skang ni..aku depan pc..buat blog dulu..baru siapkan kije aku...huhuuhu..
jumpa lain kali eh..!!
To my married and unmarried friends
This was the scene ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.
Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.
I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
Azam

Azam utk diri sendiri tahun ni..
- nak panjangkan rambut aku yg pendek ni.. walaupon best gak berambut pendek ni..tp aku tetap rindukan rambut ku yg panjang dulu.. sobb..sobb..
- nak kuruskan badan.. tk kurus mana pon tkpe..janji shape ada hohoohoh..
- nak amek exam PTK
- nak simpan duit utk FD
- nak beli kereta Gen2 tkpon kereta proton saga yg terbaru ni.. aku dah jatuh chenta la...
- nak belajar lagi..at least diploma..
- nak hindari kawan makan kawan.. :p
- nak kurangkan pape yg patut aku kurangkan.. cthnye sendrik pikir ler :p
- nak memperbaiki kualiti hidup..
‘Rasa Sayang Eh’ versi Pak Lah!
Terjumpa di sebahagian besar laman web, irama ‘Rasa sayang eh’ yang diberi nafas baru oleh seorang yang tidak dikenali ini sesuai untuk ‘merehatkan’ minda seterusnya menilai kembali kebenaran mesej yang disampaikan.
Kepada empunya irama nafas baru ini, satu tabik hormat dan penghargaan atas kreativiti anda!
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh lihat Pak Lah tidur rasa sayang sayang eh
Budak mongolia di luar pagar,
Ambil C4 tolong bombkan,
Saya budak baru nak mengajar,
Kalau salah you duduk diam-diam.
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh lihat Zam bodoh rasa sayang sayang eh
Zainuddin kita nak marah al - Jazeera,
tapi sendiri tak berpengetahuan,
Mungkinkah belajar dari…(*ditapis),
Kerana jawapannya macam ketam.
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh lihat parliment rasa sayang sayang eh
Parlimen kita macam zoo negara,
Penuh dengan banyak binatang,
Ada beruk, monyet dan kera,
Kalau pergi sana bawalah kacang.
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh lihat rempit jauh rasa sayang sayang eh
Khairy kata rempit sangat terer,
Mereka ialah mat cemerlang,
Otaknya sekarang entah mana,
Mungkin nak jadi rempit di longkang.
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh lihat bola kita jauh rasa sayang sayang eh
Dulu kita main bola peringkat antarabangsa,
Sekarang main macam ketam,
Kalah 5 - 1 kepada China,
Semalam pula kalah kepada Vietnam.
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh lihat Indonesia jauh rasa sayang sayang eh
Rasa sayang milik indonesia,
Malaysia kata mereka punya,
Otak engkau lagu ini milik kita,
Kita punya Rasuah sayang sebenarnya.
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh lihat polis jauh rasa sayang sayang eh
Bila nak tiba hari raya,
Polis kita merata rata,
Muka mereka semacam saja,
Bagi IC dan ringgit Malaysia.
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh lihat Pak Lah tidur rasa sayang sayang eh
Air di Johor melimpah limpah,
Pak lah beli rumah di Australia,
Bila Mahathir kita marah,
Dia kata rumah itu orang lain pula.
Rasuah sayang eh rasuah sayang sayang eh
Eh Malaysia hancur rasa sayang sayang eh.
~mcm kelakar pon ada!!
Birthday Zafran
mula2 nak buat kt umah aje..tp mcm boring la plak...terus kitoang decide gi KFC kt sebelah hiway serdang tu.. open dua table.. birthday boy dah tk sabar2 nak tiup lilin.. adik dia pe laie...asik dok pegang pisau kek aje...
Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday to you...Zafran
Happy Birthday to you...
Dah besar dah anak aku surang ni...rasa2 mcm baru je semalam dia lahir.. skang ni dah boleh jadi bodyguard aku pon.. Mama sayang abg tau!!..taun depan skolah..jgn lupa.. No excuse!!
Tag?
When you got tagged, you have to add your name to people who had done the tag and and let the list grow!
Those Who Dunnit
Limadang.com
RamblingMoo.com
blogginginmypyjamas
StylewithPassion
Chinneeq
Dora-zooropazoo
Babyshern
Farah (me)
Bani gundu
Frankensteina
Diyanazman
Najmy <3<3<3..haha
AyaqMasakOMGWTFBBQSAUCE
hana ni mo nai
LindoshSlebet
cepotet
Ummi
Misha_mi
First name: Azzura
Nickname: Uya, Along, Misha_mi, Kak Misha, Misaye.. hehehhehe..
Name you wish you had: cantik pe nama ni..
What do people normally mistake your name as: Ajula[chinese speaking loorr..]
Birthday: 23 oktober 1979
Birthplace: PPUM
Time of Birth: entah.. tk ingat la plak..
Parents together or divorced: stil together2 loorr..
Get along with them: jarang², kadang²...
Single or taken: single, solo, steady but not available.. cemana tu eh?
Zodiac: Libra
Wish you were taller: Sometimes
Eye color: Very dark brown
Eye color you want: None
Natural hair color: Black
Current hair color: Black and bits of dark brown
Short or long hair: Very² short!
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color: Never!
Curly, straight, wavy: like tentera eh!!
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair: kaler ngn warne merah!~!.. god..lawa giler..
Glasses or contacts: dedua tkde..
Do you wear make-up: Yeah
Ever had hair extensions: No way!
Paint your nails: ngn inai mekah, bleh?
What hair color: Preferably dark
Shy or Outgoing: Outgoing.. hehehheheh.
Looks or Personality: Err... both (?)
Sexy or Cute: cute kot..eh?
Serious or Fun: Happy go Lucky.. ok?
Older or Younger: Of course la older than me.. hehehehe..
A turn on: sporting, caring.. etc..etc..
A turn off: err....errr....
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
Rap or Rock: RnB bleh tak?
Relationship or One-night Stand: Relationship. Duh!
School or Work: Err... work
Love or Money: Err... both
Movies or Music: depends on the mood
Country or City: City. I need the buzz or I'll be bored to tears.
Sunny or Rainy days: tk kisah..
Friends or Family: Family, always!
Stole something: Can't remember any
Smoked: errr....err...
Hurt someone close to you: Blom lagi rasanya..
Broke someone's heart: heart? alamak..next please..
Had your heart broken: dont remember
Wished you were a prince/princess: Never
Liked someone: Of course!
Liked someone who was taken: No la...*sigh*
Shaved your head: once..hihihihihi.
Been in love: Oh, yes!
Used chopsticks: Yeah. What's the relevance, anyway?
Sang in the mirror to yourself: tkmo ler..sore tk sedap..
Cried over someone: Once, or maybe twice
Wish you could change anything about yourself: tkmo jadi orang yg lembut hati..!!
Ever think you are attractive: Yes of course...
Candy: mint
Song: banyak sngt...
Scent: entah!
Color: biru n merah
Movie: CUCI..[best giler]
Singer: ramai ler..tk larat nak ingat sme..
Word: banyak gak..!!
Junk food:KFC the best..!!
Website: Myspace, Friendster, Blogspot...
Lotion: penting ke?
Animal: Kucing?
Biggest fear: Losing the people I love
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life, what would you choose: Alice in Wonderland?
Do you play any sports: Not really
Link to your tagger and post these rules. List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.
- sangat² berlembut hati walaupon 'terkena'
- sayang gile² kt my hero Mohd Izz Zafran n Mohd Izz Zuhairi.
- Minat sngt ngn Gen2...tapi tah bila bleh dapat..
- Addict ngn irc n surfing internet.. [sehari tk ngadap payah wooo..]
- sngt sukakan kucing tp tkbleh pegang.....[acchummm...]
- suka life di kl, tk dengar jem sehari mcm tk lengkap hidup.
- addict ngn nescafe...cemana nak buang eh?
- paling tk ske ngn backstabbers...[&^%$@#^&^%#^&]
- Syamkasanova a.k.a EncikDiari
- TiaLady
- Bunianzz
- papai olive
- Reen a.k.a Alissara
- Tipah
- Hummy
- And for those who are reading this post, consider yourself officially tagged!
~aku pon tk paham cemana kena tag ni? pape pon sorry kt tipah eh sbb copy paste aje tipah punya....sambil mendecorate sendri punya.. heheeheh...
Goodbye 2007
-kerja mcm biasa.. tkde banyak sngt menda yg berlaku dlm bulan satu ni..selain sibuk menghadiri jemputan kawen dr member².
Febuari
-bertungkus lumus utk besday anak sulung ku 3 taun.. banyak adiah dia dpt..buat jamuan makan utk keluarga besar suamiku.. ada rendang kerang, nasi goreng special mak metua ku, jajan² of course.. gi gath² irc.
March
-mula terasa kelainan dlm badan..tp tk menghiraukan pape..asik berulang alik ke cybercafe..hihihi.. addict irc aku neh..sibuk bertanya kat org² tua ttg ketidakstabilan yg melanda diri..ujung bulan gi spital UH sbb rasa tk puas hati..
April
-rasa sebak, terperanjat, geram, sedih, marah bila mendpt berita yg kurang baik ttg diri..apsal aku bleh dpt menda ni? nape bukan org lain.. nape mesti aku? sibuk berulang alik ke UH..siang malam asik termenung ngadap tingkap..heheheeh..
-ada gak teman yg banyak memberi nasihat.. yg memberi sokongan.. ada jugak teman yg menikam dari belakang.. siapa? abaikan ler..
Mei
-dah dpt confirmation utk tarik op.. abaikan smentara waktu.. bz kan diri utk gath #kuantan dan gath radio LepakFM..happy² kan diri.. abeskan banyak masa ngn keluarga.. tiba masa utk op.. tetiba kehilangan teman rapat atas sbb yg tk masuk akal..dah stat coti..yeyeaahh...
June
-bercoti ke kedah utk menghadiri kenduri kawen kawan baik suamiku.. langsung ke perlis.. sempat juga pergi ke cc abg din [founder #perlis].. on the way balik terus ke penang..jalan², shopping, cuci mata..
-stat kemoterapi...rambut stat gugur..badan pon susut..makan pun kureng.. dan aku dpt beli komputer idaman aku..lepas ni tk payah la aku gi cybercafe laie...yahooooo...
Julai
- bz ngn kemoterapi dan ulang alik ke kampung...
Ogos
-bz ngn gath di bowling ampang.. tnguk team #kuantan jadi juara dan juga gath di shah alam..
-tahun ni sambut merdeka kat kuantan..bersama dengan syamkasanova dan member² #kuantan..
September
-part time kt melaka.. malas nak cite bebanyak.. heheheh :p
Oktober
-beraya sakan ngn keluarga.. taun ni satu set kaler biru kotak².. lepas raya sambut besday ngn anak no dua.. tarikh besday selang dua hari je.. so ada ler dua biji kek..
-menyaksikan pengkhianatan yg dilakukan oleh kawan² yg selama ini aku anggap mcm keluarga aku sendrik.. smpai tunggang langgang keluarga aku.. thanks to reen n syam sbb memberikan kekuatan pada aku..pasni aku nak padam nama derang dr hati aku ni..
November
-kemoterapi dah abeh sambung plak radioterapi..adeii... bosan sungguh..selera makan makin bertambah.. thats means berat aku makin naik ler.. huhuhhu..
-rambut dah mula tumbuh.. mcm punk pon ada aku tnguk rambut aku ni..yg aku sedar.. rambut aku ni makin halus.. berbeza btol ngn rambut aku yg dulu..
-selepas kes pengkhianatan tu, aku ngn family semakin rapat.. banyak mendalami hati masing², sibuk membincangkan hal² masa depan dan juga hal anak².
-semakin rapat ngn kawan² yg selama ini memerhatikan aku dlm diam.. thanks to them!!
Disember
-masih lagi radioterapi.. pertengahahan bulan bercoti ke Janda Baik ngn keluarga besar suamiku.. hehheehhee.. amat² lah seronok bila melihat anak² aku gembira..
~kesimpulan - tahun yg amat menarik..!! hahahahahah!!

